It's the hardest at night. When EJ is working and I'm home alone. Particularly on weeks where this happens more than once in a row, I start to feel lonely. And the old Me would have probably consumed a big dinner, soft pretzel, and cup of frozen sorbet by 11pm. The New me ate 2oz of salmon for dinner at 8 and hasn't snacked since.
I'm not hungry. Lily is fine. She likes salmon. It was enough nutrition to survive. So why does my lonely head want the company of food? Especially when food is really my no. 1 enemy. I guess it comforted me, and I miss it. I'm really, really bad with addictions and I feel like I will just displace this one if I don't watch myself. Like, oh, no food? Let me just have some crack.
Well, ok, not crack.
Le sigh. I wish it were easier.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Lonely night
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Hi Dara! Your sweetie sent a note on my blog teasing me with the lovely coffee drinks he brings home for you. He sent me your URL and I have to say, I am SO HAPPY that you named your pouch. OMG I thought I was the only freak who thought about that. When I name mine I'll introduce him to Lily. Mine is definately male and not finicky at all. Nice to meet you -- we had surgery about the same time I think!
LOL omg awesome. he is super cute and he always wants to cook for me, so he told me you had some good dessert ideas? i can't wait to steal ideas off your blog.
:)
Well, mostly my forum is just full of stuff that sounds good to me to try eventually. I can never find things unless i save them somewhere. I am getting a little more adventurous cooking lately which is odd - I used to be the take-out queen. I hated to cook! Most of the recipes I found in one place or another - but feel free to steal. PS - Dips are your friend!! That's all you need to eat that grilled chicken perhaps?
oh darling, i love you. i know youre an incredibly strong and beautiful person and will get through those tough times. as for substitute addictions, i recommend me =)
oh danny. let's just get married and move to an emo island.
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