I want to eat

Tonight is a hard one. I want food. I want to eat.

EJ is at work, and I've been home just sitting around. I've decided that sitting around doing nothing = the worst time for my foodiness. Laziness makes me want to eat, so I need to steer clear of this.

I've been occupying myself with video games. They keep me busy. I've also been much more social than usual. I had friends over 4/5 days last week. Keeping busy is good; it keeps my mind off things.

Tonight, the Resident Evil 5 game I rented specifically for tonight had a huge scratch in it...and it won't work. I played WoW for one of the few times in the past few months. I've taken the dogs out. I did Wii Fit and then took a shower (nice and sore now). I think I'm going to watch a movie.

Because what I really want to do is order italian. Or go to Wendy's and get a baked potato. Or stuff myself with the various cookies and pastries EJ has in the kitchen from the British store nearby.

But I won't. Because I shouldn't. I can't. I physically can't and emotionally can't. I've worked too hard. And I just want it to fill the time and space that being alone gives me.

So I will continue to watch this movie, and not snack or graze. I'll eat tomorrow at breakfast.

Thanks for the venting. I feel better.